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I praise you for at least portioning yourself with that situation. Considering my own mental health and substance abuse, over indulgence on food first early in life, l could go back to that again. I'm relieved that I've came a long way with physical health of being below 200 now and was well over 300 at the pandemic. Suppose the answer is somewhere.

Interesting. I should play that one day.

The beginning story was basically Eiji finding his older brother. It was a bare bones sibling rivalry of who was better, with the organization hosting it from what i remember. Him and Kayin trained under Sho. Sho was just the type who wanted to lose to a stronger fighter and was a depressed individual who didn't care for his reputation and failed to find himself as a fighter.

The Battle Arena Toshinden story series as I remember was briefly explained by the producer. So, here it goes... Sho won the very first tournament against his rival Gaia, which was suppose to be a planned prequel of the two as the main characters before the first tournament. Sho met Cupido, which she gave up the organization to have a relationship with him, which the two eventually had Subaru ( the main character from Toshinden 4). However, Cupido rejoined the organization and Sho challenged her to a death battle, killing her, due to him failing to reason with her. Sho eventually killed the entire organization in the second tournament. Ripper from URA and Cupido were siblings, which he almost murdered Sho's younger brother Eiji as an example to provoke Sho in order to fight Ripper. That tournament, they didn't fight, but Eiji defeated Ripper and Vermillion. The third tournament, Eiji eventually fought Sho in a long and tiring fight, Eiji eventually winning. Sho trusted his son to Eiji for him to train for the fourth tournament. Eiji eventually won the third tournament. Kayin retired from fighting and gave his sword to his step daughter, which she is the second main character in the 4th tournament. During the events before the fourth tournament, Sho and Ripper fought, Ripper killed Sho, due to killing his sister. Subaru won the fourth tournament, but Eiji eventually killed Vermillion.

The corniness for this reply. It's as if you're too young to be here. A Cisco aura I'm sensing from you no less. I hope you're not that person. The world and its characters. I'll deal....

The hilarious part about that is I've told them to give me a cheese burger and fries the day before and they did, and I wasn't much into red meat generally. I see your humor hasn't changed. Honestly, I needed that. Thank you. XD

Successful gallbladder removal surgery today. I'll miss my different recipes that I've cooked every month of self indulgence, but I look it as a new life chapter of more self love. I wouldn't mind posting my past recipes down the line.

I unable to process this. Unbelievable.

Out of curiousity, was Wizard ever charged with that kind of behavior? What a sour subject. People with that urge need to learn therapeutic management. I don't keep up with the FGC, so I'm clueless....

Exactly. With drugs and alcohol, I needed to save myself from people I've previously lost myself to, but I've finally saved myself for once. The gallstones were from very high estrogen levels than other things. So, it's been balanced out.

I just don't understand the lack of responsibility in people. This analogy is no different than a manipulator's behavior being seen as justifiable against kind hearted people because they can, and that it's wrong to correct them, yet allowing them to fault you over their behavior of some delusional truth about kind people being bad.

Well, the surprising news is that my estimated life expectancy changed where surgery won't handicap it originality. I've had acute liver damage due to the gallstone displacement. The damage is not severe thankfully. I'm glad that they've finally gave me something conclusive from an MRI over the ultrasound.

That anxiety misdiagnosis wasn't what it was yesterday. I've went to my primary ER. Gallbladder stones, one of them, went somewhere else, something in the intestine. Eventually, a tube will be in my throat concerning that. However, the gallbladder will eventually be taken out. I'll live a relatively short life either way. They've estimated that I won't see 50 years old, as I would be lucky on the contrary. I'm not expecting pity from this post in the least. A sense of disappointment of not resonating with much in life as the average person and yet relief in not dealing with lacking pleasure and motivational issues anymore. Investing too much in education, graduating, and only feeling asense of obligation, but yet no reward in doing so. Anyway, no wonder I felt like I was going to die yesterday, just to check up on a friend. ^_^ Just like that....

I have no party affliction nor voted before, but this can be amusing to watch sometimes.

Well, someone who saved me at one point of my life, he doesn't have that long to live due to heart failure. It's beating at 15%. I hate to see that and then go back to hospital, because of that. I nearly claps at the ER yesterday's due to strong anxiety about it, but I'm ok. I've learned alot around former Angola prisoners during really bad times for me back then from homeless. Most people wouldn't have bothered with them, especially in this city, but it was a first. Many thanks to him.

Crimson Viper, you say? Interesting. I miss her.

For me, it's usually the Cajun version, which can be approached in different ways. The custom one for me is the Mayo, butter, milk, cheese Cajun seasoning, accent, Lawry's seasonings, black pepper, cayenne, minced garlic and onion, different herbs. The base for mine are shrimp and grits of course. Cheese, butter, green onions, bacon, minced garlic, seafood or bacon gravy, parsley, and fried buttermilk shrimp as garnish. If I don't make the bacon gravy and just the seafood gravy, I save the bacon grease, and pour it on it. XD Anything beyond this is some imagination on touch ups, but not much for me.

The one thing I've noticed today here on Bourbon Street is that they are starting to make it PG and music modern. The truth is that this New Orleans street was always Rx, as anything can happen, and that children should stay away. However, things are more lenenint for them here. They've discarded Blue Crack daiquiris also. What a misrepresentation of what Bourbon Street stand for and it's history.

With preexisting anorexia nersova, it's not recommended. I'm too disorganized for that. I just eat mostly salads and sushi. I cook different recipes twice a month now, which are unhealthy. For the most part, my eating can improve. I'll invest more in fruits.

I've gotten bloodwork yesterday, but I'm ok for now. The 55 low blood pressure reading was from the natural cranberry juice. The doctors told me to stay away from it, because it's dangerous for me. It dramatically decreased both of my blood pressure and blood sugar and said I wasn't taking in enough sugar content either. My nutritionist told me to stay with Bigelow herbal tea for balanced blood pressure and sugar results.

That was the plan today. Don't worry.

I've had enough of that this year with a negative, but I won't rule that out. I've had pre diabetes three times before this year, but got out of it three times. Family history of underlining conditions too. I really hope not. If I do, then severe weight loss didn't matter over genetics. Guess I'll deal with it.

My blood sugar went from 86 a couple of days ago, to 55 yesterday. How is that possible? If it's that severely low again, then i know what's best for me. I feel no symptoms of hypoglycemia at all. Interesting... Hopefully, that was a false reading....

Well, at least I've walked away from my ex best friend recently. She was too much of a severe bi polar and dissociative personality problem. She was even worse than I was at the time, but it's very unfortunate to see her go. We were at strong odds with each other at the end and reporting her to the authorities was very bittersweet. Also, I think when a person struggles with their own life, but to the have the heart to help for those that struggles as much if not worse than you without seeing no reward anymore, you begin to stray from those very same people who didn't appreciate you to begin with, appealing to "Me Time". That level of love and attraction to her, was a disadvantage for me. The good news is that I was glad that I was accepted in a polysexual night private club, a nice, and responsible sexual encounters for right now. Solitude is ok. We cancer signs "over-love" people, to get "over-hurt" as much, and be as "over-toxic" about it. I can't handle that emotion for the life of me. LOL.

I feel like we as human beings should do alot better. On going conflict is just ill-advised to me, because it's just ego projection over love and compassion. Though, the time and era phases shift, the more it reveals a person's downfall of despair born of non-disciplined hope, which they are willing to take others down with them. A little rant from me, but I'm just tired of it. Is being this self destructive through a means of an endless pursuit of, intimidation, power and greed are really what people live for?