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Tea and coffee are great, but I prefer tea more due to the health importance. Which do you prefer?

A little problematic, but today, it was fair. I just need to get back in more shape for the vainity and before MMA training next year.

Lucky earring fusion endurance? Interesting.

I feel that next year will be a good time for fighting games. I want to play them then.

Since it's freezing now, I've signed up with Planet Fitness' annual plan. Such a fantastic atmosphere.

Appreciate it very much.

That's one of the best acting and depressed moments at the time for me. It's something to reflect on the more you treat someone as a priority, when they only see you as an option.

Take care of yourself.

Lol. Wow.

I find you all way better to warm up to lately. Bless your hearts. ❤️

Yeah. I've created another account to get away. They were still on my list after the fallout. Logged on today.

Anyone here ever hilariously looked at someone's shared post indirected about you on social media about you being a problem to them? I find it amusing that I still live inside my family's head rent free after reporting them to the authorities a few months ago as a warning to them. Guess they still have their insufficient reputation to live up to based on their shared faith based videos. I've really got them. I've had to create another social media account to get away. Lol.

Wow. A thorough investigation is launched involving my case about malpractice, which was on the doctors end from care. The attorneys who I've called almost dieing a few weeks ago about presumed negligence, they've said they wish they could help me. They've said the state of Louisiana involving this, could likely get swept under the rug, considering the laws catering to doctors, who can be excused by it, intentionally or not.

After school, I'll just migrate to California or New York. I don't care about the audition competition level and such, but I feel like after all the cut offs and nonsense, I need to start over. I prefer something of a newer environment.

Hopefully it does with me. I've allowed too many people to hurt me in life to seal a death wish after surgery continuing to only drink again. And also, consenting to outpatient therapy again for mental recovery due to being homeless too long formerly. I think being around some noticeable criminal history offenders in New Orleans alot triggering over vigilance to a gradually vindictive violent mindset and being sexually mistreated really damaged me. Perhaps talking to others confidentially again would be better for me in the long run, instead cutting society out again. The least I can do are coping mechanisms and live alone permanently, for some personal responsibility and security, as i need some peace for once. Or else, I'll lose myself again. As much as a rebel as I am, I have to say that you inspire me. So calm and comedy related you are. Thanks for the reply.

Maybe video games should be my anti drug. I have Steam now, either way....

My plan is to go back to self defense classes to expand some MMA training, which is more than just using that for the set. Pressure points, to weak spots from the anatomy when the aggressor is vulnerable to them. I still cherish that practice from first learning that close to 20 years ago. I'm more curious about learning to wield gothic claws, scythes, and other satanic weapons. My delight...

I'm just too goofy to not laugh at that. Brightened up my depressed morning. XD

Big brother surveillance, huh? That's when that level of noseiness outlived itself. *Sigh*

I guess you would be half right in combination to other reasons. Toxicity growing up, it's generally what I've always known mostly. However, my mother at the time when she was alive, she was the only one i knew that was about kindness at the time, but us both didn't have a favorable outcome on that path. However, she took that disappointment way better than i did. Even though, before she went into a coma before she died, she asked me a day before she went into a coma, she asked "what was her purpose in life"? An agonizing question to say the least. I think about 40 years of trauma and other negativity really have me gravitate to corrupt persona on the set at times. I just feel the psychological reasoning on these characters and songs that's based on depresseion. I honestly long to understand good roles. It's felt. I understand little of it, due to personal experiences.

Wow. A nice and inspirational topic. I've first had to do some voice over courses to understand this on a basic level and do some evolving from there. With fictional characters of a script, you become that character and analyze improvements on their storylines as you go. I tend to like reading about antagonistic or antihero characters. The same is when I practice singing the vocals or tune lyrics based on the negative side of humanity of my favorite song artists. Usually, my auditions ends with playing roles of evil or dismal characters, so my acting is unbalanced. I'd like to balance that out one day. Auditions of good characters were always a flat outcome. 😆

I like the occasional art stuff you post. It's cool and fits the surface of you intuitively.