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I remember at the very beginning when I was a little youngster, I couldn't take defeat from anyone or being kept back a grade in school, where education or gaming (not chess for some reason) were the measure of my entire existence to escape from my childhood problems. Self-absorption of wanting to be the center of attention and feeling destined for greatness, did hinder me.

Back in the era when my deceased mother was growing up, she said I inherited the arrogance and sore loser behavior from her, but I turned out even worse than she did, because I would belittle people for doing better than me, throwing or damaging the controller, while she didn't want to bothered in comparison. I've finally grown out of this when my mom died in my early 20s. Her death changed me.

I went to take cognitive testing so much later in life, because I suffered from the worsening of memory problems and information being hard to process. The outcome of the testing was severely humbling and was filled with bitterness, because I wasn't who I thought I was. I think even with Borderline Intellectual Functioning, there is always a way to improvise, because I eventually had to acknowledge that perfectionism is flawed by the harsh reality of compromising strengthens and weaknesses.

I remember at the very beginning when I was a little youngster, I couldn't take defeat from anyone or being kept back a grade in school, where education or gaming (not chess for some reason) were the measure of my entire existence to escape from my childhood problems. Self-absorption of wanting to be the center of attention and feeling destined for greatness, did hinder me.

Back in the era when my deceased mother was growing up, she said I inherited the arrogance and sore loser behavior from her, but I turned out even worse than she did, because I would belittle people for doing better than me, throwing or damaging the controller, while she didn't want to bothered in comparison. I've finally grown out of this when my mom died in my early 20s. Her death changed me.

I went to take cognitive testing so much later in life, because I suffered from the worsening of memory problems and information being hard to process. The outcome of the testing was severely humbling and was filled with bitterness, because I wasn't who I thought I was. I think even with Borderline Intellectual Functioning, there is always a way to improvise, because I eventually had to acknowledge that perfectionism is flawed by the harsh reality of compromising strengthens and weaknesses.

Good Lord. I've gotten what Lantis was asking over a week ago about me having an alternative account name to B-Tier. It had me confused at the time. Since it was brought up again, that's pretty vague to call me. Yes, I acknowledge that I'm not the average person, which everyone has told me that for most of the majority from my life. How would you define normal? It fundamentally lost all it's meaning to me.

I think having ulcer complications have changed me for the better from abusing alcohol. It's like that my body and mind is exhausted and indifferent from the temptation of using, which I see it as a hard reset that I would like to remain permanently. 

What do people think about sex and race specific months and a sexual orientation based one? It's not my thing, but addressing and moderately depleting the issues that minorities have faced in the past especially is basic human progress. It think that loving yourself based on your walk of life that you are assign with is ok and no one should feel a majority or minority guilt. I just don't care for pride and while human's can be arrogant by nature, a little modesty and compassion can go a long way.

Well, I believe in honesty in the introduction topic, which I'm basically an open book on the internet, because I have nothing to hide in my life. I'm sorry if you're skeptical of it. I don't have much of a recollection from my username in the year 2004, because I was mostly a lurker. 

Congrats on being selected into Islam. Welcome to the light, brother.

LMAO!!!  nah, not directed at you, but thanks for the laugh.
 
 

I got my second dose last week and my dick started glowing. Should I be concerned? 👀

Well, I believe in honesty in the introduction topic, which I'm basically an open book on the internet, because I have nothing to hide in my life. I'm sorry if you're skeptical of it. I don't have much of a recollection from my username in the year 2004, because I was mostly a lurker. 

Very naughty, if this was directed to me. I wish I could, because it's not too often that takes place. Giving a little humor back. ^_^ 
 
 

Very naughty, if this was directed to me. I wish I could, because it's not too often that takes place. Giving a little humor back. ^_^ 
 
 

TBH it's not necessarily a BAD thing. Philosophical discussions are always welcomed, just as long as you don't go all in with the loony stuff and not be a prick about your beliefs.

This game plays more traditional than all of them. 

Awww shit we got kabal?! 
 

To die so young. That gives me pause and being close to 40, I was interested in take the vaccine. Though one the cashiers I know at 40 said that when she took the shot, she felt like she was dying and will never take another one. The complexity of everyone's cases from being infected and the vaccine's side effects were always very concerning. 

Something is happening in Utah, four reported deaths  😔
 
SALT LAKE CITY (KUTV) — During a KUTV investigation into COVID-19 vaccine side effects and where to report them, we found four reported deaths, filed by Utah families and their caregivers to the CDC’s Vaccine Adverse Reporting System.
 
One case stood out, a 39-year-old single mom from Ogden who died four days after her second dose of the Moderna COVID-19 vaccine. Her family, who is now waiting on an autopsy, held a celebration of life for her this past weekend.
 
https://news4sanantonio.com/news/coronavirus/utah-woman-39-dies-4-days-after-2nd-does-of-covid-19-vaccine-autopsy-ordered
 
 

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I was confused when you mentioned Paragon because I thought you meant the being that's now known as Kismet or Ayesha. He was "born" a man but reconfigured his body to that of a woman so that she and Adam Warlock could give birth to the perfect human beings.
 
 
 
But yeah I haven't read Rise of the Imperfects. The artist is not my liking but maybe I'll check it out.
 
If you are looking for anti-heroism, you can check out The Darkness from Top Cow comics.
 
https://www.comixology.com/The-Darkness/bundle/1321

https://www.foxnews.com/us/california-bill-ban-boys-girls-toy-clothing-sections-department-stores-gender-neutral
 
Wow. I just found out about this on the news this morning. It's definitely not what I was expecting, as I thought they were going to include a section where toys and clothing were going to be exclusively structured for neutrality, instead of looping them together for tolerance. A bit barbaric in enforcing it or they'll be fined, but interesting. 
 
 

Is this racist though? Characters in Guilty Gear refer to May and Anji as "a Japanese" because they're Japanese. If so, Guilty Gear confirmed racist against Japanese!😂 
 
 I wish uppity white people would stop trying to "instruct" everyone on what's racist and what isn't and let non-whites speak for themselves. 

I agree, but there is more nuance to this. 
 
Stuff like this is what's being talked about.
 

 
I am certainly OK with a publisher pulling the plug on printing that. 

Yeah you're never going to be happy with that mentality. If you're struggling to find people because you can't earn their acceptance, it's the same as trying to open up your opponent with overheads and lows. It'll work occasionally and is a long term thing. You'll be unhappy. You have to engage in stuff you enjoy and be communal about them, and people will gravitate to you. Choosing friends is ok, but I've found that especially in Western society where people feel obligated to be in a friend group, guys and girls both will throw themselves at each other so they aren't alone. It'll come... Don't worry.
 
I need to move out soon too. I don't know how much more of this noise I can take. These people don't shut up. Animals...

I'm sorry to hear that. Half of what's described, my family fall under this as well and was quick to put me out of their homes since they could no longer control me. I think that was the best thing that happened to me, because I needed to find myself, instead of living most of my life appeasing/emulating other family members for approval.  I still struggle with that when trying to make friends by earning their acceptance of me, but I need to work on surrounding myself with positive people.

https://www.foxnews.com/us/california-bill-ban-boys-girls-toy-clothing-sections-department-stores-gender-neutral
 
Wow. I just found out about this on the news this morning. It's definitely not what I was expecting, as I thought they were going to include a section where toys and clothing were going to be exclusively structured for neutrality, instead of looping them together for tolerance. A bit barbaric in enforcing it or they'll be fined, but interesting. 
 
 

I miss Hot Topic and Macys. Goth and androgynous clothes are my preferences. I wish that I didn't have to go to Metairie or Kenner for this, but I guess it's worth the ride.
 
I also like the unisex fragrance CK One, but would like to expand on other gender neutral perfumes.

I was on good terms with my whole family until I realised that some of them were snitches, narcs, attention seekers and rape-inclined bigots. I would rather be in Pakistan than the US, but I can't even fucking go back there because of them. Cringe.
 
I deleted everyone! Now I block all family member and vet every follower since they will create alts to narc.