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Soooo.... I guess the mystery of who Zatalcon was in SRK has finally been resolved...

Last post for tonight
 
I think extreme selflessness was the default devotion to a less depressing life for me or so I thought. My mistakes in the past were with not establishing healthy boundaries. The feeling of betrayal by those who took advantage of my kindness and being falsely accused of crimes and having to go through intensive care was one of the abstract cases of my isolation from society, because I was afraid of being hurt again. 

It took a while with forgiveness a few years down the line, but prior to that, I was filled with anger and homicidal thoughts for 2 years. Though for me, I could never take another person's life, because I'm too empathetic for others, always placing their lives over the well being of my own. 

After a while, I began to think should I have a healthy balance of the co-existence embedded selfishness and selflessness in me, but the two have lost it's appeal.

I remember at the very beginning when I was a little youngster, I couldn't take defeat from anyone or being kept back a grade in school, where education or gaming (not chess for some reason) were the measure of my entire existence to escape from my childhood problems. Self-absorption of wanting to be the center of attention and feeling destined for greatness, did hinder me.

Back in the era when my deceased mother was growing up, she said I inherited the arrogance and sore loser behavior from her, but I turned out even worse than she did, because I would belittle people for doing better than me, throwing or damaging the controller, while she didn't want to bothered in comparison. I've finally grown out of this when my mom died in my early 20s. Her death changed me.

I went to take cognitive testing so much later in life, because I suffered from the worsening of memory problems and information being hard to process. The outcome of the testing was severely humbling and was filled with bitterness, because I wasn't who I thought I was. I think even with Borderline Intellectual Functioning, there is always a way to improvise, because I eventually had to acknowledge that perfectionism is flawed by the harsh reality of compromising strengthens and weaknesses.

I wouldn't give yourself a hard time, but know this. While I believe no one is the same, I think there is a difference between putting so much effort into being different where it isn't authentic and it's a chore to preserve (I'm not saying you), than having it come naturally through the trials and tribulations of one's life. 

I don't know about covid but AIDS is something im skeptic about. I think it's a lie just to promote condoms, which Atheists want so they can push their agenda of eliminating real men. 

Back then during medieval times and such, they never used condoms.. and they def had sex a lot if you watched Spartacus. No one got aids. I used to go to brothels all the time after church when I was young. I would pretend to suit up, and the minute the girl turns around, i'd take it off and WHAM. No aids. 

I think this is also why SRK is dying. They talk so much about who is going to jerk off in that lounge thread and not passing on what HE normally taught us which is men should never wear condoms because condoms are for girls. 

Tomorrow morning, I'm going to my mom's house with copies of her death certificate to mail them out to every spot (except the power company; still deciding what to do with the house) where she had bills.
 
Some of these places she had debts were collection companies though. If I mail these out to them, will they start to come after me for her debt (even though I know I'm not legally liable for it)? Has anyone had experience with this?

I wouldn't give yourself a hard time, but know this. While I believe no one is the same, I think there is a difference between putting so much effort into being different where it isn't authentic and it's a chore to preserve (I'm not saying you), than having it come naturally through the trials and tribulations of one's life. 

Yeah that's the thing. These people are generally low education and low income, and definitely not science experts. Yet, it's amazing how they can spin stuff. All scientists and governments are in on some scheme and some random nutty youtuber or rightwing website tells the truth. Just crazy. In the past we'd laugh at these people as tin-foil hats, but there are so many of them now and they have too many platforms to spread their misinformation.
 
There was this false claim that the truth speaks louder than lies, but that's utter BS. Lies and misinformation have always spread easier. While it's true the government and elites often engage in propaganda and misinformation campaigns, the things these people choose to oppose are seldom challangable on the grounds they claim.
 
The only thing you can really do is buffer yourself as best as you can and engage in healthy habits. Quite honestly that generally requires at least a certain income level and amount of space and personal freedom. If you're stuck in an area of high misinformation there's not too much chance you have. Such is how the world works. Maybe this belongs in Unpopular Opinions.

Well, there's my brother who's also a covid denier. He would always question the CDC/World Health Organization and overconfident on his over analysis on the virus, which is ironic, because he didn't do so well in more logical fields pertaining to science in college, so he went with Graphic Designing and graduated. So, I don't understand why would he and others would be in the position to question and reject facts, when they have no credentials to show for. He has asthma and if he catches the virus, he's in trouble and that's on him. People with that mentality have died or lived to tell about their regret of not taking this seriously.
 
Just because people are pandemic fatigued, doesn't mean they should be given a pass for ignorance. 

As someone who's around children a lot, they cannot comprehend the effects of the decisions they make and it's potential consequences. Kids feelings at any given moment is a guessing game at the best of times due to how indecisive they can be. Leaving life altering decisions in the hands of a child is all kinds of irresponsible. 

It's from Avatar The Last Airbender. 
 
Not an Anime. American Cartoon  (for as much as that means anything since 90% of toons/anime are animated in Korea anyway).

I can respect that. I'm a bit of a rebel and kind of sympathize with nihilism having been there before, so it's a typical view from me. I guess on the subject of child abuse, I feel that a parent that forces their religious beliefs on the child, that child should be taken away, due to the psychological hold and outcome that it has on the majority. Though I don't think I'm suppose to be talking about religion, because the rules here are a bit stuck up for me.

https://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/new-superearth-planet-discovered-toi-561b/
 
The planet is about 50 percent larger than Earth but requires less than half a day to orbit its star.
“For every day you’re on Earth, this planet orbits its star twice,” said UC Riverside planetary astrophysicist and team member Stephen Kane.
 
Part of the reason for the short orbit is the planet’s proximity to its star, which also creates incredible heat. Its estimated average surface temperature is over 2,000 degrees Kelvin—much too toasty to host life as we know it today, though it may once have been possible.
 
In addition, Kane said that although the planet has roughly three times the mass of Earth, the team calculated its density to be the same as our planet.
“This is surprising because you’d expect the density to be higher,” Kane said. “This is consistent with the notion that the planet is extremely old.”
 
The older a planet is, the less dense it’s likely to be because not as many heavy elements were available when it formed, explained Kane. Heavy elements are produced by fusion reactions in stars as they age. Eventually stars explode, dispersing these elements from which new stars and planets will form.
 
Discovery of planet TOI-561b, and additional observations the team made about its composition, have been accepted for publication in the Astronomical Journal.
“TOI-561b is one of the oldest rocky planets yet discovered,” said University of Hawaii postdoctoral fellow and team lead Lauren Weiss. “Its existence shows that the universe has been forming rocky planets almost since its inception 14 billion years ago.”

Named for NASA’s Transiting Exoplanet Survey Satellite, TESS Object of Interest (TOI) 561 belongs to a rare population of stars called the galactic thick disk. Stars in this region are chemically distinct, with fewer heavy elements such as iron or magnesium that are associated with planet building.
 
The TESS Mission team used the University of California’s access to the W.M. Keck Observatory in Hawaii—home to some of the most scientifically productive telescopes on Earth—to confirm the presence of planet TOI-561b. The observatory’s equipment also helped the team calculate the planet’s mass, density, and radius.
Astronomers are continually trying to understand the relationship between the mass and radius of the planets they find. This information yields insight about the interior structure of planets that with today’s technology are too far away to visit and sample.
 
“Information about a planet’s interior gives us a sense of whether the surface of the planet is habitable by life as we know it,” Kane said. “Though this particular planet is unlikely to be inhabited today, it may be a harbinger of a many rocky worlds yet to be discovered around our galaxy’s oldest stars.”
 
(I haven't read the articles of this site in a long time, but it's good to hear news like this, instead of bad news.)

I've changed my mind. I rather choose physical health and even vanity, over mental health, due to having an underlining condition and how the virus may interact with me should I get it. It would be a dismal way to die of complications, because of my weight. So, I'm going start eating healthy again, exercise, and one day post before and after pictures. I look forward to being thin again. 

You know HIS name very well. Just by everything else you wrote here. 
I haven't heard from The Dammed for a long time, and the last time I recall anything about him was him getting humiliated and smacked around like a bitch in a religion thread, by the One who is Undefeated.


btw: The Dammed was that guy who posted about how he cries when other people touch him? 

I had 1 interaction with Cisco and it was hilarious. He called himself the saviour of SRK and I told him I didn't even know who he was. He ripped the fattest ass I had ever seen.
 
I don't understand how he functions daily. Has to be missing some fingers, right?

Cisco...I vaguely remember that name, along with The Damned. I don't think SRK took kindly to religious discussions back then and you could have been the most active in your beliefs at the time, but I could be wrong. 

I wish to get a Playstation 5 should a new Virtua Fighter comes, but I'm suppose to go back to college in the fall for culinary arts. My playtime in games have been on the decline for a while, but having it back can last in the duration of the remaining months before school starts for me.

I guess I'll bite this once. I'm failing to see how I'm a nuance to you and possibly to rest. And here I thought the forums are a purpose to connect and engage amongst each other, be it serious, moderate, or casual topics, without crossing foul play. There are interesting people here where I can take advice from and could relate, but you want me to take heed of your warning instead? I understand that I can't be liked by everyone and not the owner of this forum, but can you at the least be a little open-minded? On the other hand, maybe I'm too far out there in general behavior. 

Luckily, for you it's good timing that I've ran out of things to say about myself at this time. So, that could help ease your intolerance of me.

I wish to get a Playstation 5 should a new Virtua Fighter comes, but I'm suppose to go back to college in the fall for culinary arts. My playtime in games have been on the decline for a while, but having it back can last in the duration of the remaining months before school starts for me.

Your nickname is one of my old usernames, yes. It feels like I'm your counterpart here. I feel he doesn't like what you are saying, too. He banned me for being inappropriate once. Ha ha ha ha!

Last post for tonight
 
I think extreme selflessness was the default devotion to a less depressing life for me or so I thought. My mistakes in the past were with not establishing healthy boundaries. The feeling of betrayal by those who took advantage of my kindness and being falsely accused of crimes and having to go through intensive care was one of the abstract cases of my isolation from society, because I was afraid of being hurt again. 

It took a while with forgiveness a few years down the line, but prior to that, I was filled with anger and homicidal thoughts for 2 years. Though for me, I could never take another person's life, because I'm too empathetic for others, always placing their lives over the well being of my own. 

After a while, I began to think should I have a healthy balance of the co-existence embedded selfishness and selflessness in me, but the two have lost it's appeal.

Last post for tonight
 
I think extreme selflessness was the default devotion to a less depressing life for me or so I thought. My mistakes in the past were with not establishing healthy boundaries. The feeling of betrayal by those who took advantage of my kindness and being falsely accused of crimes and having to go through intensive care was one of the abstract cases of my isolation from society, because I was afraid of being hurt again. 

It took a while with forgiveness a few years down the line, but prior to that, I was filled with anger and homicidal thoughts for 2 years. Though for me, I could never take another person's life, because I'm too empathetic for others, always placing their lives over the well being of my own. 

After a while, I began to think should I have a healthy balance of the co-existence embedded selfishness and selflessness in me, but the two have lost it's appeal.